For quite some time now, I’ve felt like I’ve been living in the past. I feel like I’ve been reminiscing too much and too often to the point where the nostalgia has become a bit unhealthy in a way. I don’t ever seem to look forward to the future; to be honest every thought about the future is met with an overwhelming mix of unease and confusion. I don’t even seem to pay attention to the present anymore. Instead of making memories and living in the moment, I’m spending my time dwelling over the past, thinking “what if” or “I should have” or even just replaying memories as they were in my head. The past is in the past and we can never relive it again; everyone knows this, I know it, but why can’t I stop this?
It doesn’t help that it’s such a contrast to everyone else’s attitude, even more so after entering university. Every conversation you overhear involves “I’m so excited for” or “I can’t wait for”, because everyone’s moving forward and meanwhile I’m just stuck in this nostalgic cycle I can’t separate from. The result is this constant, awfully dull feeling - feeling detached from the world and distant from everyone.
on a scale from 1 to sansa stark, how much do you regret your childhood crush